Update - LOOOOONG TIME

Well, it's been a while. A lot has happened since my last post. First of all, I haven't really worked out. Secondly, I haven't really been watching my diet. We went on vacation, which was SO much fun! Of course, we all got sick. I am still trying to get over my cold. In fact, I have decided I will start exercising again after the long holiday weekend to give myself these last few days to KICK THIS virus I have picked up.

We are busily in the middle of swim lessons and summer mayhem.

I weighed in today and I am actually quite happy. Because, although I haven't been watching my food intake, I haven't been BAD either. Before I left I weighed myself and I was up to 257. I figured a week of food, sun and wine would not do good things for me. Well, I didn't over-indulge and when I got sick I didn't eat much. This morning I weighed in at 255. I am actually happy about this. 1 pound up from my most recent low after a month of not exercising and not being super diet careful isn't bad. I think this is a sign to kick it back in! I'll weigh in again on Monday like always and we'll go from there!

Stuck in the mud

I have had a headache for the past several days. I am NOT feeling any motivation to workout or eat healthy. My husband has been working a lot so I feel like a single mom, although I know that single moms have it WAAAAAAY harder than I do.

I WANT TO STUFF MY FACE. I also want to cry. The weather isn't great, so we aren't doing anything. Plus we are watching our money closely, so I don't feel like we can do anything that costs money.

I know that eating will not help me achieve the things I want to achieve. I KNOW that. But why is food so seductive?

I am also noticing that the closer I am to God, the happier I am and the better I adhere to my diet. I haven't made the time to read my Bible lately, and I wonder if that is part of the problem?

Week 7 Weigh In

254. NO CHANGE. I am actually THRILLED about this because I didn't have a great week and we had company over the weekend which ended yesterday with a big heavy lunch at Red Robin followed by thick milkshakes. They were yummy. I wasn't hungry the rest of the day, so I didn't eat dinner. I did have an ice cream sandwich last night though.

I really want to do well and get below 250. That would be huge for me. I need to buckle down!

Week 6 Weigh In

Well, well, well....
254 this morning. I am VERY happy about this, since I ate about 6 large pizzas a week ago. Okay, not 6, but I ate too much! However, I picked myself up and got right on the dieting bandwagon again. Pretty much unheard of for me to do that.

Yeah me! This means I have lost 19.5 pounds! Double Yippee!

This weight is significant since it is my lowest weight in all of 2009 and it is lower than my weight ever was in 2008! My lowest 2008 weight was 256. My new BMI is 40.99.

I am definitely seeing change in my food choices and my will power. I bought my family donuts on Saturday morning because my daughter was begging for them and they haven't had them in a while. I got 2 extra and I ate 0! Side note: I am the only overweight member of the family, and my children eat very healthfully, so things like this are truly a once or twice a year treat.

Also - when I am out and starving, I am making much better food choices. After church we realized we needed to run my child to the doctor. After all that was over it was 3 and I hadn't eaten lunch. He had at least had some raisins and pretzels, but we were both starving. I got a grilled chicken sandwich. From one of my favorite burger places, too.

My next goal is to get below 250. I'll just concentrate on that for now!

Some Things Change and Others Remain the Same

There are a lot of times where I feel like I have really made a positive change in my eating habits. I definitely strive to make better choices at restaurants. I avoid foods I know will set me over the edge. When I have limited options or NO healthy options, I try to have a single serving of what is there and move on.

Until yesterday.

I was at a birthday party we had travelled to and there was pizza and cake. Seriously, that was it. I had 2 pieces of pizza because I was starving and had no cake. I was feeling proud of myself. See, pizza has always been a weak point for me. Also, it is important that while I lose weight, I also come up with habits that are sustainable in the real world. I was okay with my choices.

Then we left and the hostess insisted we take pizza with us. A LOT of pizza and we were stuck in the car for 5 hours. It turned ugly. I wasn't even hungry, but bored and it was THERE.

I have a long way to go and I feel sick and mad at myself today. BUT, I cannot change what I did. The next thing I need to avoid is turning it into a week long binge. I am doing so well and I want to keep it up!

Week 5 Weigh In

Since this is the holiday weekend, I thought I'd weigh in a day early. I am down 2 pounds to 257. Honestly, I am stunned, because I had wine many nights this week and I wasn't stellar with my following the WW points. However, I was nowhere near as bad as was my norm prior to starting this diet. Plus I had three great elliptical workouts.

Preschool is officially over, and I need to get into my groove for summer. Not just a schedule for us to kind of follow, but when I will schedule in my workouts. I am more determined than ever. The next two days will be bad, but I am going to make the best choices I have available.

Week 4 Weigh In

Weekly weigh in (drum roll please)

259, for a weekly loss of 1.5 and a total loss of 14.5. I am trying REALLY hard to be happy about this. I really wanted to have a bigger week, however, I am really happy to see 25 as the first two digits of my weight.

Highlights of this week:

• I started physical therapy this week for my back/hip. It is going well! I am not in any pain, and am able to do the strengthening and stretches without any problem.
• I had several great sessions on my elliptical. I also went on a few walks, so the exercise is starting to get there.

The worst part of the week would have been the cookies I made as a gift. A nice idea, except the container wasn't big enough for all of them and I had some extra. Now, I didn't binge like I normally would, but I ate more than I would have liked to.

SO, I need to move on and get over it. I would really like to try to lose at least 2 pounds every week. I know I am going to be having wine this week at least twice, so I need to be extra good with the food.

PLUS, I am currently at my lowest weight for 2009, but to get to pass my lowest weight for 2008 I need to be LOWER than 256. SO, in three more pounds I will be at my lowest 2008 weight. I think that would be pretty cool!

SO, my new goal is to lose 3.5 pounds to be at my lowest weight for 2008 AND 2009!